A friend I have met from this blog left a comment saying, "I know I don't live for every moment, I don't even live for every day. I have wasted so many moments so many days seeking pleasure and comfort for myself. I pray right now that more and more my moments will be lived for others, for God, through Jesus." The truth is Brad, I didn't always either.
After high school, when I was diagnosed with the Myelodysplasia Syndrome I kind of became a recluse. Not that I don't like people just that I didn't want to depress people with all my problems. So I got into computer gaming, playing games like Tribes 2, Battlefield 1942, and World of Warcraft. I loved these games because of the friends I made from all over the United States and the world. I also loved the teamwork needed to be good in any of these games. It was alot of fun! It also helped me forget about my problems and it helped me escape.
In the online world my handle or screen name was Soulkiss, I got this name from a game I rather enjoyed called,"Vagrant Story" for Playstation. It was a name of a weapon in the game. I thought this was a cool and original name so I used it. I got teased about it but who doesn't get teased about their handle.
In World of Warcraft, "Four years have passed since the aftermath of Warcraft III: Reign of Chaos, and a great tension now smolders throughout the ravaged world of Azeroth. As the battle-worn races begin to rebuild their shattered kingdoms, new threats, both ancient and ominous, arise to plague the world once again."
"World of Warcraft is an online role-playing experience set in the award-winning Warcraft universe. Players assume the roles of Warcraft heroes as they explore, adventure, and quest across a vast world. World of Warcraft is a "Massively Multiplayer Online Role Playing Game" which allows thousands of players to interact within the same world. Whether adventuring together or fighting against each other in epic battles, players will form friendships, forge alliances, and compete with enemies for power and glory." [http://www.worldofwarcraft.com/info/beginners/index.html]
I thought being a healing class only made sense with my handle. I was a Dwarf Paladin named Soulkiss. I enjoyed healing my friends, through quests and dungeons and on the battlegrounds. I had tons of fun playing this game! It was all I really did, the game became addicting. I also was going through some hard times with a tumor that was found in my stomach. It did help me forget about it some but it didn't make it go away. After awhile I just felt empty and unhappy, so I stopped playing.
This is when I started reading a "Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren. This book helped me understand the meaning of life and what I was supposed to do with it. It helped explain God’s amazing plan which has been set before me. Once I knew the true reason behind life it made life a lot easier. It made life less stressful, helped me focus my time and energy, choices became easier, helped me see the worth of my life, and the most important goal of all life eternal!
After reading this book, I knew what my purpose really was. The author Rick Warren really helped explain the Bible and cleared many things up for me. I remember, asking the Lord to fill me with Holy Spirit. I got my answer! Wow, did he ever fill me with his spirit! This is the best way I can explain it. It felt like my heart was going to explode! I had so much emotion flowing through me, love and excitement pouring out of my heart! It was the greatest feeling I have ever felt! It was like the Lord kissed my soul.
Maybe this is the reason I chose the name Soulkiss, I just didn't know the true reason yet. *laughs* The Dwarven Paladin who would stick with his friends even if it meant death! I do miss those that I use to venture with, I will try to keep in touch with them. I use to see them everyday, we were like family. I still play online, I just have a different mission now. One that really means something to me! I am still helping others, just in the real world on the Internet. Inspiring and motivating those that need and seek it! I do hope you enjoyed reading this, take care!