The Light of the World
I just had a revelation today.I had a horrible episode last night, I just let all my pains, doubts, surround me and it just over whelmed me so much! I realized that I let my fears take me over because I didnt go to God when I was scared. I should of have looked up one of them "Emergency Phone Numbers". [http://thelifeofthomascslater.blogspot.com/2008/09/emergency-telephone-numbers.html]
I didn't and I suffered because of it. Lesson learned!
The reason I am so addicted to God is because he is the only cure for my pains, that is why I have been sorrounding myself with him, through reading the Bible, TBN, praise music, and so on. I realize I am in pain all the time because of everything I have been through. It can be a negative but it is also a blessing because I am always searching for God to take the pain away. Like Jesus said, "Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted. "Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth. Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled. Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy. Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God." [Matthew 5:4-8 KJV]
I believe that this is true because those that have suffered alot have been through a sense of hell. When you experience this hell, whether emotional or physical pain and if it is constant it can be very draining and devastating if you let it! The answer for me is not drugs, alcohol, or medicine it is the word, thought, worship, of my God. Praise the Lord! This is why it just hurts me so much to see those people who have turned away from God and seem to have no idea what peril they are in. Why would anyone want to go to hell? I just couldn't imagine a world without God or in other words love!
I am not trying to say in any way, that I am better than someone because I have found God. Not even in the slightest form, I am sharing my love of Jesus Christ and my stories so that people can see that he loves everyone no matter what. We all have our stuggles with God, we are all human, we all are like Jacob (Israel) from Genesis, we all struggle with God. It took me, getting diagnosed with cancer 3 times, to finally realize this. This was my struggle. Everyone is different and will have different stories, I just figured I would share this with those that have to go through hard times so that maybe it will be a little easier for them! The secret is to submit to God, trust in God, let him lead the way, everything will work out!